Finding contentment

What a beautiful afternoon! A balmy, 32 degree, sunny day! - Stu took me and all 5 kids down on the river with the snowcat and trailer. There were drifts of snow swooping over the tops of the tall, dirt banks along the sides of the curving river of ice. You could see through to the bottom in areas - 3 ft. of dark, clear ice; you could even see the branches at the bottom. We went over deer track trails, and felt "close" to nature - out of sight from the real world.
This morning I was complaining to my Sunday school group that I've got "cabin fever" and we've never been on a honeymoon, though we've been married 11 yrs., etc.... Since we all pray for each other, my prayer for this morning was for contentment.
Then we listened to the sermon. We heard that we have 2 "banks" - one for trust - (our trust in God), and the other for worry/anxiety. If one is full, the other is empty. I got thinking that I hadn't deposited anything into my "trust account" in a while. We also were reminded to lay up for ourselves treasure in Heaven.
It took me back to when we were deciding to adopt. Our thinking then, was that we wanted to lay up treasure in Heaven. I remember last year when we were on a snowcat ride through the country, that I was thinking, "you know, we've got it good - we've been so blessed, -wouldn't it be great to share our blessing with others? Wouldn't some other kids love to go on these rides and be part of a family...?"
And so we did that very thing - we now have 2 more kids to share life with. No, I may never get to Hawaii, or Mexico and walk barefoot along the beach, holding my husband's hand, swim with the dolphins, etc..., but I have confidence that God is preparing a place for me - and it will probably make Hawaii look like, I don't know - peanuts. Besides that, these two extra kids are extra special. They love life, enjoy the things we've long taken for granted, and totally trust their parents.
And so, I sit with one kid on my lap, another two squished beside me, in a homemade trailer behind Dad on his snowcat, who is holding a sleeping baby on his lap, and another behind him. Each kid is happy with life, love their parents, and notice the little things. I am content for now - we can enjoy what's in our own back yard, and trust God for our future.
Thanks for supporting me in my journey!